Jade and I's Happenings!

Jade at Pizza Hut with me doing her very favorite thing.... drinking , or shall we say guzzling Sprite.

She's trying to rub the mess of Pizza of her hands.

She can say pizza now and every once in awhile will ask for some.

CHEESE!

She finally learned to say cheese so you can actually get her to look at the camera now!

Puppy with Rosie. She LOVED it!

Jade just kept kissing her over and over.

Kristina and JAde with the puppy. We stayed at Ryan and Mary's house for the a few days and had a great time.

We celebrated Holly's Birthday while we were there and this is the cake that Vicki got her from BonBonnerie. Its SNOW WHITE! I LOVED IT!

HAPPY!

NOT AS HAPPY LOL!

I think this might have been after Grandmas chocolate cake.

This is JAde during one of her rash episodes. They come and go very frequently and if not given enough benedryl all the time will get like this with her eye almost shut.We cant figure out what it is that she is allergic too!

This is Ava, my friends Crystal's baby girl. We went to high school together so its neat to be able to have baby girls at the same time. I think she is a cutie!

Jade giving her kisses!

Uncle Jeremy with the bathing beauty's! They use him for a trampoline i think sometimes.

Jade's favorite thing is to get on your chest and then bounce on you with earth shattering power!

Jade at the Rivertown mall, eating an ice cream from Dairy Queen.

She dearly enjoyed it!

Melissa and MOM and I at the Amway Grand Motel.

Jade and Emma sitting on a barrel at the tapas restaraunt that we went to.

Neither of them were in the best of moods that day so this was the best that we could manage at the moment.

I just had to put a picture of her in pig tails because they are just too cute!

People that encourage me!

I have been reading the blog of a man who is now kinda famous. His wife died within 24 hours of giving birth to their daughter because of a blood clot. And he has started this blog to map his and his daughters journey without their wife and mother. To relive the pain I think. To write out his confusion. Writing definately does that for me. But I think I saw today that he calls his blog readers creepy as a kinda joke about them wanting to read his blogs. Because there are thousands that read it. And I started thinking why is it that people like myself want to read some random man's blog about his wife dying and their little girl? And then I thought probably because when you read the terrible , horrific things that other people go through and yet they lean on God and they pull through every awful day, and they just keep on going, you catch on to it and whatever you are going through you realize that you aren't the only one and that no matter what you are gonna be able to see tomorrow . Tomorrow might not be better than today but I am always going to hope that it is. And just to know that your heart won't break of grief is amazingly satisfying to know. And these people I read about every day are the proof. Life is hard and it tries to get the better of you. But then you see these beautiful testimonies of people who refused to let it. They don't know what life brings but they are going to do the best with whatever it brings. And maybe because it is so refreshing to see someone do what people can't seem to do these days. He knew he had a daughter to take care of and he has done it with the utmost care of a mother. When these days most people would just given up he is picking up where He needs to and doing the job that He wasn't prepared to do. Being a single father . Trying to tell a baby girl all about her mother. The message that yes, you can go on one more day and yes it is worth it in the end.

I'm back!

Well, sorry everyone that has been concerned about Jade's rash. It did go away when we gave her benedryl but then came back a week later. Which is now, and so we are giving it to her again and trying to figure out what it is that is making her so allergic! I got a car so I can actually go places now! Yay. But my computer got a virus so hopefully i can get it fixed soon and give more updates and pictures , for now I am stuck going to the Public library which isn't a joy. Jade says hi to everyone and hopefully we'll be back soon!

The rash and etc!

Daddy trying to keep my happy even though my skin hurts soo bad!

HAPPY BEFORE THE RASH!

BIG SMILE!

ponytail! lol

These are her ZEBRA outfit pics!! So cute!

The rash is very itchy and she is not feeling so good at the moment!

Her using her purse as an emergency rain cover hat or some such thing ha

This is the first of her sad pictures from the rash but the rash is way worse than it looks here!

Sleeping in her high chair because sleepiness got the best of her!

Here are some more hodge podge pictures. I just have been doing a whole lot of nothing lately so there isn't really a lot to tell everyone. Jade has mysteriously come down with some terrible hives and we are not sure what the problem is so . ... here are some pics.

Conglameration!!!!!

Jade and Emma at the mall driving us wild!

Jade and Riley having a slip sliding time!

oops and we see it again!

She didn't dislike Santa , but she wasn't in love with him either. still cute though!

She is smoking those wheels.

This picture is to show off Jades love for putting her hands in her pockets and looking cool!

Jade wearing her daddy's field hat on the way home for Christmas.

We were doing anything we could think of to keep her entertained, she was pretty good though!

A place that nick and stopped and got lunch in West Virginia.

It was very interesting! Not bad though:0

Very brave , I know

They love the carousel

Jade and Riley still in the bathtub before the bubbles, they loved the mermaids.

Us at Beni hannas

I know not the best picture but it is all of us at Benni hannas

Our little fam at my mom's house with her tree.

Christmas at the Sam's , Jade was pretty sleepy.

Emma and Holly and I

Another years over, a new one's just begun~

As everyone else is joyfully proclaiming the new year and all the things that they intend to do with it, I find myself reflecting a small bit on the things of the old year. The idea that the old year can just be over and done and the new one is now a fresh beginning, is a very intriguing notion. But , as I ponder that thought, my heart tells me it will be a long time if ever, before I can toss 2008 out the window.There are many various reasons for this , some I cannot tell, others that most know . There are times in a person's life when choices that have been made will forever change their life. And this year , a few of those choices have been made. Change has taken place in my life and with that change , I changed. Things that used to matter , somehow don't now. And things that didn't matter, mean the most to me. I learned some valuable lessons. Some that aren't quite finished yet, but each day I learn more. There were times, I thought I didn't know where to turn and my mom and dad were there when I needed them the most.Never had my dads arms felt so good. And never had my moms unselfish babysitting sessions and meals been more appreciated. And phone calls to my sisters were daily marathons for which I will always be thankful. It meant more than the world to me. I found that God knew the road I traveled and gave me a beautiful little girl to make me laugh instead of cry. Or at least hug me when I did and show her concerned little girl face, which I couldn't help laughing at. He also knew that I would need something to keep me busy and He gave me a perfect job. A place where I could be me and not have to be anything else. I learned that worrying about what other people say about you will drive you crazy in a hurry. Above all else , I learned that God is a loving God. This may seem simple to you, but I am still young and learning these things for myself. So, when I look at 2008 , I see myself learning some valuable lessons to help me through 2009 . Because this is a journey and there aren't really new begginnings, just new lessons to learn.